Thursday, August 31, 2017
Day 31: The Last Day
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Day 30: The Lights Are Always On--Part Three
“Are you sure this plan will work, Grandpa?” I asked.
“With all the gold, we collect from this here mine, we will be…I don’t even know how rich. But I do know it will be a lot of money for everyone. Let’s go get the gold!”
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
Day 29: The Lights Are Always On--Part Two
Monday, August 28, 2017
Day 28: The Lights Are Always On--Part One
Sunday, August 27, 2017
Day 27: Some Friendships Never Fade
Saturday, August 26, 2017
Day 26: The Forest
Friday, August 25, 2017
Day 25: Infant Thievery--Part Two
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Day 24: The Unhappy Hitman
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
Day 23: The Poetry in Sounds
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Day 22: Infant Thievery--Part One
Monday, August 21, 2017
Day 21: Some Old Poetry
Sunday, August 20, 2017
Day 20: The Baker's Partner--Part One
Saturday, August 19, 2017
Day 19: Pickles - Olivier's poetry
Eating with potatoes deep fried.
Friday, August 18, 2017
Day 18: The Death Chamber
Thursday, August 17, 2017
Day 17: The Quest for the Unfortunate Fortune--Part Two
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
Day 16: The Quest for the Unfortunate Fortune--Part One
Tuesday, August 15, 2017
Day 15: The Man Behind the Desk--Part Two
-Entry 405-
I heard the most heart-wrenching sound this morning. It was a cry unlike any I’ve heard
before. A cry of sheer agony and complete
pain. I saw someone who looked like a
doctor rush by me a half hour later, followed closely by the maid who was speaking
so fast it sounded like gibberish. Yelling
came from one of the rooms for about two hours and then all was dreadfully
quiet. Deathly quiet. The imagination runs wild in situations like
these. I didn’t really know what had
happened, but I had my suspicions. They
proved to be true. A body was carried
out on a stretcher. Phillip was holding
Freda as she sobbed uncontrollably.
Little Nora held one of her mother’s hands. Neither of the twins were to be seen. I realized the body had to be one of
them. I can tell the difference between
the two, but the body was covered by a sheet.
I don’t know who has passed.
-Entry 406-
It was George the older of the twins. I still don’t know what happened and I don’t
know that I ever will. I’ve head yelling
coming from the twin’s room. I still
haven’t seen William. My heart is heavy
and my stomach is in knots. I can’t
imagine how he must feel.
-Entry 410-
I saw William for the first time since George died. He wore a black suit and tie. Outwardly and at first glance he looked
incredibly put together. I can’t imagine
the effort it must have taken to appear so.
It was the funeral day. If you
didn’t know him, you would have thought his expression to be at peace. But I’ve watched him for over a year
now. I’ve never seen a sadder face. Looking closely, it seemed he could barely
walk. Each step was agony. His entire being suggested pain. The family left. The servants were all in the kitchen
preparing food for when the Carltons got back.
I heard a sob and looked up.
There was the couple having a picnic in the painting across the
way. The girl was crying. The man looked up at me. I saw the tears in my eyes reflected in his. We nodded at each other. This wasn’t part of the job description.
-Entry 441-
William has taken to wandering the halls at night. The hours are longer than ever. He paces my hallways much of the time. He has taken a liking to my painting. He sits or stands for hours on end, with a
flashlight on me, just staring. I think
he finds some form of comfort in my expression.
Maybe it reflects in some way how he feels. It hurts every night now watching him in such
pain unable to do anything to help. I
wish this job wasn’t mine.
-Entry 460-
I know how William feels.
I know because he tells me. He
is lonely and empty, as if a piece of him has been torn away. He tells me this every night. Every.
Single. Night. As he speaks, I feel myself wither. It hurts more and more with each midnight
confession. I want to speak to him so
badly, to tell him it will be alright.
To tell him he’s not alone. But I
can’t. It would be breaking my vow of
silence. I despise this job. I hope they can find me a replacement soon. I don’t know how much more of this I can
handle. Every night I watch someone in
the deepest pain imaginable and I am not allowed to do a single thing about it. What is worse; to break a promise or to sit
still in the midst of the darkest depths and do nothing?
-Entry 478-
Last night was the hardest night of my life. He broke.
William finally broke. And it
wasn’t just a break. It was as if a
million pieces he had been trying to hold together finally fractured
completely. One moment he was telling me
about a memory of his twin brother and the next he was sobbing, his head in his
hands and his shoulders shaking. He was
sitting on the floor rocking back and forth.
My heart broke. Maybe it
shattered alongside his. And I was not
allowed to say a thing to this hurting young man. But I did.
“William this isn’t the end. Things will get better.”
He raised his head. “Who said that?” he asked.
“I can’t tell you,” I said. “But I can guarantee things will get better.”
“How can you?”
“Can you imagine darker days than
these?”
He thought for a moment. “No, I don’t think so. I suppose not.”
“Then that must mean there are
brighter days ahead. One of these days
the sun will break through the clouds.
You will move on. Not past the
memory of your brother, but you’ll learn to live without him. Wounds do heal. The scars will remain and ache from time to
time but the pain won’t be so overwhelming.
You will be thankful for the time you spent with him and not angry for
the time you didn’t have.”
William began crying again. “I don’t see how,” he said.
“William, you must speak with your
family. Tell them how you feel. You are not the only one hurting. You can make it through this with their
help.”
I saw a lamp light flicker on and
slowly approach us. As it got closer,
Phillip appeared as the holder with Freda, his wife, by his side. They sat on either side of their son. Not a word was said. They just enveloped him in a holy embrace and
a love deeper even than death. They
cried together on the floor. And in that
moment, wounds began to close and scars began to form.
-Entry 480-
I got fired. I broke
my vow of silence. I don’t have an ounce
of regret. I didn’t know disgrace could
taste so sweet. Thankfully, they granted
my wish to work for just one more day. I
took the opportunity and didn’t move from the Desk the whole day. Twenty-four hours straight. I watched the Carlton family, taking in
everything I could. In the morning I saw
William walking by holding Nora’s hands.
They were laughing at a memory of one of George’s pranks. They laughed and cried together. I heard a lot of that; laughing and
crying. William walked down my hallway
late in the night again. He stopped and
stood where he had been sitting the night before, where wounds began to close
and scars began to form.
“I don’t know who you are,” he said,
“but thank you.”
Then he looked straight into my
eyes. I don’t know whether he knew or if
he was just taking one last look at a face that had been his companion. He stood there for a moment and then turned
and walked away. I listened to the heels
of his shoes click down the hallway, knowing it would be the last time I heard
that sound. A peaceful quiet settled on
the hallway. And then I heard someone
clap, rupturing the silence. And then
another pair of hands joined in and another, until the sound echoed and bounced
off of the hallway walls and reverberated across the entirety of the house. I knew the clapping was for me. Every person in the other paintings, in my
hallway, was clapping for me. They knew
I would get fired for breaking my vow of silence. They knew they would be fired for applauding
because they had made the very same vow.
But they clapped all the same. It
was their salute and farewell to me.
All was once again quiet by the time
the Carltons and their servants arrived in the hallway. The paintings were still as they should be.
“Freda, I think we might be
haunted,” Phillip said.
After thoroughly searching the
house, they returned to their beds to what I assumed to be a rather restless
night. I looked across the way at the
man having a picnic with his girlfriend.
He nodded at me. I nodded at
him. And this was the end to my final
day as “The Man Behind the Desk”.
Monday, August 14, 2017
Day 14: The Man Behind the Desk--Part One
-Entry 1-
This is it. My first
journal entry and my first day. I’m both
nervous and excited. Giddy is too weak a
word to describe how I feel. Who would
have thought I would be chosen to replace Dylan Dougherty? My parents always said I had a very similar
appearance to the Original, but never would I have thought I would actually become
“The Man Behind the Desk”. I’ll admit
I’ve dreamt of it. But now that dream
has become a reality. I think I’m going
to throw up.
-Entry 2-
My first day was nothing short of amazing even though sitting
still is already proving to be a difficult task. I love watching the Carlton family going
about their normal everyday life. The
father, Phillip, is very tall with a commanding yet gentle presence. Freda is the mother and wears a friendly and
pleasant expression. She treats everyone
with exceptional kindness, including the servants. George and William are the eldest children
and twins. I’m not sure which is the
older. They’re always up to some form of
mischief, playing pranks and jokes, all in good fun of course. Nora is the youngest and is an absolutely
lovely person. She has such a bubbly
personality and never seems to stop smiling.
I think she’s inherited her mother’s soft heart. The maid is Sarah Thompson and she seems nice
enough. She goes about her duties
quietly and efficiently. I haven’t got a
good look at any of the other servants yet.
-Entry 14-
Last night I had to sit through my first party. There must have been upwards of a hundred
people in attendance. George and William
showed many of the guests the paintings in my hallway, making up the most
ridiculous history behind each one. They
told their stories so well and without laughing at all, so that many of the
guests actually believed them. One guest
later commented to Phillip how knowledgeable his sons were. Phillip soon discovered their shenanigan and
reprimanded them sharply, but I could see the laughter in his eyes. I believe the twins could as well as they
didn’t look too crestfallen at the rebuke.
It was by far the hardest day yet.
There were a few moments I almost laughed out loud. But I remembered Dylan Dougherty. That was why he got fired and is in disgrace
now. Somehow, I managed to hold it all
in, but I do understand Dylan Dougherty’s problem now.
-Entry 32-
I’ve been working at the Desk for a month now and am
beginning to realize how tough this job really is. Yesterday I sat without moving for sixteen
hours straight. Freda had a fever so the
maids were constantly moving up and down my hallway with wet cloths and soup
and such. A couple people had to help me
stand when finally there was opportunity.
My hand was cramped in a claw-like shape from holding a quill for hours
with no respite. When I’m not working or
sleeping, I have to work at keeping in the exact same physical shape which is
quite difficult when you sit at a desk for hours on end. But it must be done as even a slight altering
in my appearance could be noticed by the Carltons or their servants.
-Entry 103-
I finally have my first break. The Carlton family is going on vacation and
so am I. In the meantime, a temporary
replacement will go through extensive makeup sessions to alter his appearance
to look like me. He will sit at the Desk
while I am away. I am much looking
forward to this much needed vacation.
-Entry 110-
Tomorrow I’ll be back behind the Desk. I wouldn’t say my
vacation really felt like a vacation. My
name is known all over this world now. I
get spotted and someone wants an autograph or to shake my hand or to ask what
it’s like to be “The Man Behind the Desk” or to say their friends always told
them they looked like “The Man Behind the Desk” or to want a firsthand account
of what the Carlton family is really like.
I didn’t get the rest I longed for.
In some ways my break was more tiring than my actual job. I felt as if I was constantly talking to
someone and didn’t have a spare moment to myself. I did get to spend a few days with my
family. That was nice, but even they
treated me differently. Fame and fortune
come with a cost. I’m actually looking
forward to being back at the desk in solitude.
-Entry 360-
Yesterday was Christmas.
I didn’t see the Carlton family much except for them running out of their
rooms in the morning to get to their presents and Christmas tree as fast as
they could. I heard laughter and joy the
whole day. I’ve never felt so lonely and
homesick my entire life. I hope today
will be better for me.
-Entry 366-
Last night was another incredibly
long evening. It was New Year’s Day and
the Carltons had another huge Carlton party.
The house was packed and noisy and my hallway was extremely busy. I’ve never had so many people stop and study
my painting. It was a trying day for me,
but everyone seems pleased with my performance and I must say I am as well. My favourite part last night was the
countdown and everyone yelling “Happy New Year!”. No one was in the hallway and I, along with
everyone in the other paintings, joined in with the cheer.
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